MOFOS WHO SUPPOSE TO BE FRIENDS.......


NOT TOO LONG AGO THERE WAS A POST PUBLISHED ABOUT A FRIEND PUSHING HER FRIENDS AWAY. THIS WRITER WAS HAVING A HARD TIME BELIEVING HIS FRIEND COULD TREAT HIM THIS WAY. NOW THE TABLES HAS TURNED. HE'S DOING THE EXACT SAME THING BUT BEING VERY RUDE TO HIS FRIENDS. HE NEEDS TO OPEN HIS HYPOCRITICAL EYES AND LOOK DEEP INSIDE THE MIRROR OF HIS SOUL.

ON 20 APR 06 I CALL MY FRIEND AND I DON'T USE THE WORD SO LOOSELY. IT WAS HIS BIRTHDATE. I CALLED AND THE CONVERSATION WENT LIKE THIS " HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I KNOW YOU DON'T DO THE BIRTHDAY THING BUT ACCEPT IT." HIS REPLY " NAH I'LL HOLLA AT YOU LATER." INSTANTLY I HAD THE DIAL TONE. THIS NIGGA WAS REALLY MAD BECAUSE I THOUGHT ENOUGH OF HIS ASS THAT HE LIVED ANOTHER YEAR. THAT'S MY BIGGEST PET PEEVE. I THOUGHT WE WERE ALL ADULTS HERE. ADULTS TALK ABOUT THINGS AND NOT HANG UP ON EACH OTHER. I MAY BE WRONG FOR WHAT I'M ABOUT TO SAY BUT I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. THAT WAS SOME REAL FAGGOT ASS BITCH SHIT TO DO TO A FRIEND. TO TOP THIS SHIT OFF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN IT, BUT YOU CELEBRATE IT TWO WEEKS PRIOR BY HAVING A CASINO NIGHT BIRTHDAY PARTY AND WAS KIND OF UPSET THAT YOU DIDN'T GET THE TURN OUT YOU EXPECTED. SOUNDS PRETTY HYPOCRITICAL TO ME. THEN TO TURN AROUND AND GET AN ATTITUDE WITH ME ( SUCK SOMETHING).

YOU ALL MAY THINK THAT I SHOULD BE BIGGER THAN THAT BUT HELL NO. YOU JUST CAN'T KEEP GOING THROUGH LIFE BEING QUIET ABOUT PEOPLE HURTING YOUR FEELINGS BECAUSE THEN THEY'LL DO IT AGAIN. HE WAS THE SAME PERSON WHO SAID SOMETHING ABOUT OUR FRIEND PUSHING HER FRIENDS AWAY AND HERE HE IS ACTING LIKE AN ASS. AIN'T NO LOVE LOST BUT I'M THROUGH. YOU ONLY HAVE ONE TIME TO HANG UP ON ME ESPECIALLY A FRIEND. I HOPE YOU JUST OPEN YOUR EYES AND LEARN TO HAVE PEACE WITH YOURSELF AND COME OUT. COME OUT AND DON'T BE AFRAID TO BE WHO YOU'VE BEEN FIGHTING TRYING TO HIDE ALL YOUR LIFE. I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL LIFE AND BE BLESSED WITH ALL YOUR ENDEAVORS. I JUST WON'T SUBJECT MYSELF TO YOUR VIEWS OF FRIENDSHIP. IT'S BEEN NICE KNOWING YOU.

LONG ASS WEEK.......


I KNEW I HAD TO PLAY G.I. JANE THIS WEEKEND, BUT I NEVER INTENDED TO BE LEAVING A DAY EARLY. IT'S COOL THOUGH I NEEDED A VACATION FROM WORK. I CLOSED OUT MY SHOW TODAY FOR MY CANDLES. I HAD A TOTAL OF 6 SHOWS AND I STILL REACHED MY GOAL. ALL I HAVE TO DO NOW IS REACH MY GOAL FOR THE MONTH. NOW I WANT TO PUSH MYSELF HARDER. I KNOW I'LL DO IT. I HAVE A LOT OF DETERMINATION.

SUNDAY WHEN I RETURNED FROM WORK MY CAR STOPPED IN FRONT OF THE HOUSE AS I WAS PARKING. TO MAKE ALONG STORY SHORT I BELIEVE MY ENGINE LOCKED UP. I HAD AN BLOWN HEAD GASKET. I SUDDENLY BECAME DEPRESSED BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO. I'LL BE HONEST MY CREDIT SUCKS. AND EVERY TIME I TRIED TO GET A CAR INCLUDING A USED ONE I'VE BEEN DENIED. THE LADY THAT GOT ME INTO SELLING CANDLES SENT ME TO A DEALERSHIP MONDAY AND IN AN HOUR AND A HALF I DROVE OFF THE LOT WITH AN 98' MONTE CARLO. ALL I DID WAS PUT ONE FOOT FORWARD AND NOW I CAN TRY TO ESTABLISH SOME CREDIT. I'M TAKING ALL THE NECESSARY STEPS TOWARDS IT. I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GET A SECOND, WELL THIRD JOB IF YOU COUNT SELLING CANDLES. I LIKE TO PAY ALL MY BILLS AND SHOP. I NEVER WANT TO COMPROMISE MY HAPPINESS.

TWO OF MY FRIENDS ARE NOT DOING SO WELL RIGHT NOW. ONE IS GOING THROUGH A LOT AND PUSHING EVERYONE AWAY. I CAN UNDERSTAND MORE SO THAN MY OTHER FRIEND WHAT SHE'S GOING THROUGH AND HOW SHE'S REACTING. I TOO HAVE BEEN JUST LIKE HER. I HAD TO LEARN NOT TO PUSH MY FRIENDS AWAY. I HAD A FRIEND TELL ME "IF I'M YOUR FRIEND WHEN YOU ARE DOING GOOD, WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I'LL TURN MY BACK ON YOU WHEN YOU ARE DOING BAD. OUR FRIENDSHIP DOESN'T END BECAUSE YOU ARE HAVING PROBLEMS". WITH THAT BEING SAID SOMETIMES TWO HEADS ARE BETTER THAN ONE AND YOUR FRIENDS MAY BE ABLE TO HELP YOU OUT OF THAT STUPOR. I WANT THE BOTH OF THEM TO KNOW I HEAR BOTH OF THEM AND NOT TO GIVE UP ON EACH OTHER.