SCARY ASS PUNK

I NEVER THOUGHT THERE WOULD BE A DAY I WOULD CALL MYSELF A SCARY ASS PUNK. I'VE BEEN CONTEMPLATING THIS FOR A WHILE NOW. THERE WAS NEVER A MOMENT WHEN I WAS YOUNGER WHEN I WOULDN'T SAY OR DO ANYTHING. I GUESS I WAS MORE SECURE BACK THEN. I KNOW IT CAN'T BE OLD AGE.

THERE WAS THIS FEMALE THAT I'M FRIENDS WITH. I WAS SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO HER. I NEVER ACTED UPON IT OR EVEN MADE A PASS. I FIGURED EVENTUALLY IT WOULD HAPPEN. NEXT THING I KNOW SHE WAS MOVING AWAY. I HAD A LOT GOING ON AT THAT TIME AND SO DID SHE. ONE NIGHT SHE PUT IT OUT THERE AND INVITED ME TO GO OUT WITH HER BEFORE SHE LEFT FOR HER NEW JOURNEY. I RECLINED WORRIED ABOUT WORK. I KNEW DEEP DOWN THAT I WANTED IT AND THAT WOULD PROBABLY BE MY LAST CHANCE. IT WAS MY LAST CHANCE AND I DIDN'T DO A DAMN THING. IT WASN'T LIKE SHE WASN'T ATTRACTIVE. SHE WAS FINE AS HELL. BANGING ASS BODY, BEAUTIFUL FACE, AND VERY TALENTED AND BEAUTIFUL. I GUESS I SLIPPED AND MISSED MY BEAT. I WONDER WILL WE EVER GET THE CHANCE TO MAKE ILL BEATS THAT'LL FORM INTO THE PERFECT VERSES OF HIP-HOP?