LONG ASS WEEK.......


I KNEW I HAD TO PLAY G.I. JANE THIS WEEKEND, BUT I NEVER INTENDED TO BE LEAVING A DAY EARLY. IT'S COOL THOUGH I NEEDED A VACATION FROM WORK. I CLOSED OUT MY SHOW TODAY FOR MY CANDLES. I HAD A TOTAL OF 6 SHOWS AND I STILL REACHED MY GOAL. ALL I HAVE TO DO NOW IS REACH MY GOAL FOR THE MONTH. NOW I WANT TO PUSH MYSELF HARDER. I KNOW I'LL DO IT. I HAVE A LOT OF DETERMINATION.

SUNDAY WHEN I RETURNED FROM WORK MY CAR STOPPED IN FRONT OF THE HOUSE AS I WAS PARKING. TO MAKE ALONG STORY SHORT I BELIEVE MY ENGINE LOCKED UP. I HAD AN BLOWN HEAD GASKET. I SUDDENLY BECAME DEPRESSED BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO. I'LL BE HONEST MY CREDIT SUCKS. AND EVERY TIME I TRIED TO GET A CAR INCLUDING A USED ONE I'VE BEEN DENIED. THE LADY THAT GOT ME INTO SELLING CANDLES SENT ME TO A DEALERSHIP MONDAY AND IN AN HOUR AND A HALF I DROVE OFF THE LOT WITH AN 98' MONTE CARLO. ALL I DID WAS PUT ONE FOOT FORWARD AND NOW I CAN TRY TO ESTABLISH SOME CREDIT. I'M TAKING ALL THE NECESSARY STEPS TOWARDS IT. I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GET A SECOND, WELL THIRD JOB IF YOU COUNT SELLING CANDLES. I LIKE TO PAY ALL MY BILLS AND SHOP. I NEVER WANT TO COMPROMISE MY HAPPINESS.

TWO OF MY FRIENDS ARE NOT DOING SO WELL RIGHT NOW. ONE IS GOING THROUGH A LOT AND PUSHING EVERYONE AWAY. I CAN UNDERSTAND MORE SO THAN MY OTHER FRIEND WHAT SHE'S GOING THROUGH AND HOW SHE'S REACTING. I TOO HAVE BEEN JUST LIKE HER. I HAD TO LEARN NOT TO PUSH MY FRIENDS AWAY. I HAD A FRIEND TELL ME "IF I'M YOUR FRIEND WHEN YOU ARE DOING GOOD, WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I'LL TURN MY BACK ON YOU WHEN YOU ARE DOING BAD. OUR FRIENDSHIP DOESN'T END BECAUSE YOU ARE HAVING PROBLEMS". WITH THAT BEING SAID SOMETIMES TWO HEADS ARE BETTER THAN ONE AND YOUR FRIENDS MAY BE ABLE TO HELP YOU OUT OF THAT STUPOR. I WANT THE BOTH OF THEM TO KNOW I HEAR BOTH OF THEM AND NOT TO GIVE UP ON EACH OTHER.